I am back in the states now, but it doesn't feel like I am home.
I have been trying to unpack my new room in the Schaaf home, I am stuck in the in-between stage again. Story of my life.
I am excited to see what this semester holds for me, but I don't understand how people go to college for so long! I want to be doing things now. I know that God can use me here and now, but I want to be out there already, making a difference in ways that I didn't even know were possible.
I'm back at work on Wednesday and I can't wait. At least I feel useful there. I can't wait to get caught up with my coworkers and enjoy my time with them.
I need prayer this semester, I can already feel the anxiety weighing me down. I want to make this year great but I'm scared. I'm basically on my own now and I have so much to do. It's as if my insides are screaming "I'm not ready!", and the truth is that I'm not, looks like I am going to be leaning on Gods grace a LOT this semester.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
About to Depart
There is no way that this summer could have blown me away more, I am truly thankful for what God did in my life through these camps this summer.
I met incredible teammates who were such encouraging people throughout the summer, I met campers who changed my life, and I got to know my Savior in a real way through a sport I love.
I am sitting in the airport waiting for Stu to get through customs so that we can get coffee before our flights depart. I am a little bit in denyal I think, it doesn't feel like I am going home at all. It doesn't feel like I just said goodbye to six people who now mean so much to me. I am excited to go home and back to work and school though, I know that I will be able to use some of these things that I learned this summer in my everyday life with coworkers and school and who knows what else.
School starts on Monday, yes thats two days from now, and i feel great (incredibally sore but great). What a way to kick off the school year, I can't wait to get out there and start making a difference.
Thank you to everyone who helped me get here this summer, your prayers and financial support have truly blessed my life. I am a different person because of this summer. Thank you for believing in me!
I met incredible teammates who were such encouraging people throughout the summer, I met campers who changed my life, and I got to know my Savior in a real way through a sport I love.
I am sitting in the airport waiting for Stu to get through customs so that we can get coffee before our flights depart. I am a little bit in denyal I think, it doesn't feel like I am going home at all. It doesn't feel like I just said goodbye to six people who now mean so much to me. I am excited to go home and back to work and school though, I know that I will be able to use some of these things that I learned this summer in my everyday life with coworkers and school and who knows what else.
School starts on Monday, yes thats two days from now, and i feel great (incredibally sore but great). What a way to kick off the school year, I can't wait to get out there and start making a difference.
Thank you to everyone who helped me get here this summer, your prayers and financial support have truly blessed my life. I am a different person because of this summer. Thank you for believing in me!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
I'll Never Forget Today
What a day.
Today was the best day of the summer. I gave my testimony to a group of 25 teenage boys and girl today, i had been thinking about it from the moment I woke up this morning to the moment I pored my heart out to these kids.
I prayed for two hours before I gave my testimony and just thought about what direction I wanted to go with it and God rapidly brought ideas and verses into my head. Before I was supposed to go I felt sick to my stomach though, which was weird because I don't usually get nervous about speaking. However when I started speaking God just brought the words and the pace and everything those kids needed to hear. I shared parts of my life that I have never shared before and every boy in that room was captivated as I spoke. There was a shaking in my voice for the last half of my testimony but I knew I wasn't gonna cry, God just stirred up so much passion in me. I just hope that my story hit home for one of those kids.
After chapel though I could tell that the kids thought of me differently, yeah all week I was the chill, goofy, girl counselor who they didn't take all that seriously, but after chapel I could tell they respected my ability to get deep and to just help them to understand my snd Gods love for each of them.
I wish I had more time with them for they are just starting to open up, but tomorrow is the last day and it only goes till two.
Thank you guys for your support this summer, God has blown my expectation out of the water, for how will I ever jump right back into school and daily life now?
Today was the best day of the summer. I gave my testimony to a group of 25 teenage boys and girl today, i had been thinking about it from the moment I woke up this morning to the moment I pored my heart out to these kids.
I prayed for two hours before I gave my testimony and just thought about what direction I wanted to go with it and God rapidly brought ideas and verses into my head. Before I was supposed to go I felt sick to my stomach though, which was weird because I don't usually get nervous about speaking. However when I started speaking God just brought the words and the pace and everything those kids needed to hear. I shared parts of my life that I have never shared before and every boy in that room was captivated as I spoke. There was a shaking in my voice for the last half of my testimony but I knew I wasn't gonna cry, God just stirred up so much passion in me. I just hope that my story hit home for one of those kids.
After chapel though I could tell that the kids thought of me differently, yeah all week I was the chill, goofy, girl counselor who they didn't take all that seriously, but after chapel I could tell they respected my ability to get deep and to just help them to understand my snd Gods love for each of them.
I wish I had more time with them for they are just starting to open up, but tomorrow is the last day and it only goes till two.
Thank you guys for your support this summer, God has blown my expectation out of the water, for how will I ever jump right back into school and daily life now?
Thursday, August 4, 2011
I Can Feel it Beginning
Honestly, I had no idea what to expect from this summer, playing hockey and working with kids? Sign me up! But this summer has become so much more then that; I can feel it, I can feel the change coming and I'm not scared.
All the kids that I have had the blessing of working with thus far have impacted me so much. Most likely they will never even realize this. I can only hope that had an impact in their lives. Gods is charge of that one.
I'm not sure what God is trying to tell me, but I know that if I could be doing something like this for the rest of my life I would jump at that opportunity.
I don't know if you realize this but Canada loves hockey SO much, so the majority of the kids at the three camps we have done so far are not only unchurched but have herd very little about the gospel! It has been truly a blessing to see some of these kids come to Christ and become fulling willing to serve Him at young age.
God knows what he is doing with me this summer, I can feel it beginning. And I can't wait.
All the kids that I have had the blessing of working with thus far have impacted me so much. Most likely they will never even realize this. I can only hope that had an impact in their lives. Gods is charge of that one.
I'm not sure what God is trying to tell me, but I know that if I could be doing something like this for the rest of my life I would jump at that opportunity.
I don't know if you realize this but Canada loves hockey SO much, so the majority of the kids at the three camps we have done so far are not only unchurched but have herd very little about the gospel! It has been truly a blessing to see some of these kids come to Christ and become fulling willing to serve Him at young age.
God knows what he is doing with me this summer, I can feel it beginning. And I can't wait.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
MY TEAM (i finally figured out how to post pics from my iPad)
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| Mike Suderman and I, rockin the staches |
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| Kevin Brink and Ancel Schwabe |
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| Me and Stu Guffy |
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| Heather Hogg and I |
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| Colin Ott |
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| Debs, Ancel, Heather, Stu, and Kevin chillin in the van. |
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| Ancel and I in the van ready for dinner |
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| Kevin, I, Debs, and Colin |
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| Kevin and Stu |
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